some days back

I guess the state of euphoria still exists till now. It has really been a super long time since i laughed like crazy. And darling could even tell that I enjoyed myself thoroughly during the BBQ session. ^-^

After reading cat's entry, i am still smiling to myself. Gosh! Battling with wind and food and laughter! Really really an enjoyable session and took my mind off my work for a while. To date, i am really dying from the accumulated stress.

hehe, Ah cat was the funniest person on that day. Eating so many food because she lost to us in most rounds! hehehe... that should teach her a lesson not to buy so much sotong balls because it is economical! =P

Anyway, i'll be going to bintan for a day with darling to celebrate our 1st year anniversary. Was surprised mum allowed me to go. HEHE. Am curious what my darling has brought for me. He is always full of surprises lar!

But my cross stitch not yet done. Please wish me luck! I hope i would be able to finish it soon. =(

take care ppl! and i miss u all!! =D

paying school fees tml, will be poorer again! haiz!!

continued... pics -bbq

June 2008 BBQ ^-^

must watch the SNTC

hi gals ,

Recently , I had been actively looking for a good job but the reply seem slow. Anyway , hope I can seriously find myself a good job and settled down . Yesterday , I had made some big decision about my life. I am glad and contented. I wish Carol can recover herself soon and get herself someone who deserve her . I am really shocked at the news , i just feel sorry for her that she meet someone so bad. He shouldn't waste her youth . Many times when we reflect on certain things , we only realised it when it is too late . Of course , we do have our insecurity and unhappiness at time but somehow we just don's realise it . Seeing a good friend of mine fighting strongly for her love really pain my heart but all i can give her is a form of encouragement.


This week will be going batam with dearie :> he planned a trip for me . I am so happy .

my may rantings

May hasnt been a smooth month i must say.

And suddenly i felt as if god has forsaken me and leave my prayers unanswered. Have you ever wonder about the irony of the way you lead your life? The slogan, 'No time' is always the 2 words most frequently used when you started to work.

Everyday's a no-time day. And then in a blink of eyes, you wonder how long have you had your usual girlish chats with those who sometimes called you? Everybody's leading a different life. Each of us wanted a different things in life. But as i chase after my wants and desires, i forgot about the people whom i always talked to. =(

Recently, Carol told me that her bf broke off with her when they were about to get married this year. Her bf of 8 years betrayed her heart and told her why he wanted a break off. It was hurting to hear the words he said. For when he realised it long ago, he did nothing to hint Carol that being together was a mistake. Instead he carried on, till another girl stole his heart and affirmed his feelings of love.

I felt depressed over the incident. It was so very hard to believe that a guy no longer loves you even though he pretended that everything was alright, held your hands and brought you out for shopping on weekends. But it was evident that this relationship was having some problems when he hesitated about marrying her 2 years ago.

What made my heart aches was they bought a house together and had it furbished. Now, carol had to pay for the guy's share and still wanted to keep the house. And the house will continue to huant her with memories that will never reside and scars that she'll remember for long.

I am confused at why a person can stop loving their partner and then carry on the relationship. It just doesnt make sense. I am also confused why one party has to give in so much just to gain so little attention of the other.

haiz.

Moodiness please go away...