bad bad me...

for the past 2 weeks, i've been in a state of confusion.

perhaps work was driving me crazy and the last thing i ever wanted to see was the bf.

soon... i became busier with school and work. Hardly leaving any time for the bf. Then, came along a guy which fits the type i would like to have as a bf. (p.s. it's the appearance only). And it just happened that we're born on the same day but in different months. And it happens that we're so similar in our habits, this i only realised it when he pointed it out to me.

Initially, i didnt think we would end up like this. Then it became more and more apparent that this was not what a normal guy would treat a girl. Soon, it became a denial that i carried it in my mouth, shrugging away the thoughts when the bf asked.

I didnt know what stopped me from going further. Perhaps the guilt stung deep in my heart. On the other hand, there's a thrill when you tried to exceed the limits without being suspected. Thank god, i didnt cross the boundary further.

Until one day, he asked, "我对你不够好吗?"

to date, i dont know what made me lose my sense of direction. i had the unbelievably perfect bf and a perfect relationship. i dont know why i couldnt resist temptations...

But today the clouds in my head finally cleared.

I still love Glenn. Because the love tied me down, because i know i wouldnt want him to be doing this to me. His tolerance for me having the friends i choose to be with has already supercede many other bfs that i've come across. also, there could be nobody who wld treat me like he does. Popping out surprises now and then. Got worried and pained because i fell and hurt myself badly. Be there for me when i needed someone to hang on.

Thus, i'm keeping my fingers crossed. i'd rather be loved more than love somebody more. Afterall, love is a chemical reaction in the brain that will subside in time to come...

As for this friend whom we've become buddy, i think i sorta made it clear that i wont betray my bf. =)

take care ppl! and pray that i'll pass my exams. flunked 2 papers le! >.<

friend engagement

this is my friend's engagement.

Thanks alot

i am really happy that I all my friend remember my birthday. It's so great to have all of you. Thanks alot for the present and treating me. I really really grateful abt it.

sorry that i post up so late .......hee

this is the picture

my permed hair!

hello all!

i've got my hair permed! looks like auntie!!!

kaoz..

dont laugh so much okies? i know u all must be laughing! humph!!!

many says i look better in straight hair! haiz...

cheer up

hi lp ,

 dont worry lah , he will understand . Maybe you can spend some couple time during weekend , treat him to a movie . :>


mouse

洋葱

如果你眼神能够为我
片刻的降临
如果你能听到
心碎的声音
沉默的守护著你
沉默的等奇迹
沉默的让自己像是空气
大家都吃著聊著笑著
今晚多开心
最角落里的我笑得多合群
盘底的洋葱像我
永远是调味品
偷偷的看著你
偷偷的隐藏著自己
如果你愿意一层一层一层
的剥开我的心
你会发现你会讶异
你是我最压抑最深处的秘密
如果你愿意一层一层一层
的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸
你会流泪
只要你能听到我
看到我的全心全意
听你说你和你的他们
暧昧的空气
我和我的绝望装得很风趣
我就样一颗洋葱
永远是配角戏
多希望能与你
有一秒专属的剧情

this was the current song on glenn's fav. upon reading through the lyrics..

it seems like i've been too much.

now, what do you think?
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lao shu, cheer up! =) slowly find a job u like wor... and dont be so kan jiong. i can lend u my formal wear. =D

jia you jia you !

hi gals ,

hope all of you will jia you and stay happy to overcome all obstacles facing us .

something to share with you , i am still thinking and hoping to find a job as soon as my exam ended . Yup , hopefully to find a job while in a dilemma to take a small rest just staying at home /

I had been thinking of what to do with life . Bascially , two more exam to finish

29 april - mc exam
30 april - sm exam

dates are too near without time to breathe . I really hope they can change the dates of the exam .
Yup ,been snooping around to buy office attire but find it darn expensive even a plain blouse at G2000 cost a whopping $49.90 . Finally got one at zara yesterday at $29. To me the price is good and the cut suit me . i am going bonker soon at the expense of which industry to go into .

Family is always a boil of troubles : can't imagine my dad get money $100 from my wallet without my knowledge and he got into hetty bills of unpaid mobile bills of $120 ++ and use the phone as if like the line is free . what does he expect ? keep expecting us to pay . and even pawn away a rolex for a mere $200 with brother having to take it back from him . I am feeling disappointed at my dad not contributing to household and keep taking our money as if we are very rich . I am very disapppointed he got punched because he got entangled into traingle relationship with a 38 years old women . my mum was good always ensuring i got enough to eat and money to survive but somehow she keep asking me when u starting work . I feel very stressed as if to shoulder a burden of debt , a burden . And my bf duno how to comforted me when i tell him these problem but just listen . Nobody really understands right but i will handle these all by myself .



clara