tiring

I feel as if I am carrying the biggest burden today . I had my final mgt accounting test 70% , let's say I just pray god I get a whopping 40 m , and i am on the safety margin okie. Do i sound like an accountant? Exams , they are the scariest of the lots , and my spinning headaches is getting frequent , i never had it before . Feel so weird .

- my little blackie laptop is going to spolit so i am now in the midst between getting a desktop or a laptop .
- marketing BB exam on 31st oct
- OTD exam on 7th nov and still got case study to analyse
-sony roadshow - 12-19nov at IMM

I was in a mood to get my dearie a nice pressie of mint choc , did he love it , i hope so .

happy 7th month anniversary ....:> went celebratin with Him at Thai express and I got all the wrong orders and the food din really taste well... dun ever order glass noodle with prawn n pop piah and the bland milk tea ... regret . sorry i waste your money...



i detest ungentlemen and guys who is insensitive to ppl feeling .. why can;t they just learn to understand , was it so fun being mocked ....

Ren

hello , this is my 3rd attempt to reply to you cat , as my laptop always jam whilst i am blogging and it is collapsing at any time . Try to eat humble pie and tolerated them , sometime in such a situation , you don;t have to feel upset over people who don't really care about you and ppl who don;y know you . Be positive thinking , treat this whole ordreal as an experience to you . come back if you are unhappy --- i mean after two years , don;t always tolerate . Life is not basically just this . Don't be too trustful of ppl around there , you can split all the problems with us gals and forgetting about telling them . Guys are not to be trusted . you have seen it through this person and really must be more high-mach and reserved about sensitive issue there . take care . and don;t be so sad about it .

chEer up people!!~

lately, the number of lost souls have been on the rise.

just managed a quick glance on cat's latest blog. before i go in depth with my analysis, i shall quickly blog down on my understanding of the word, "Understanding".

few days ago, i had cuzzie asking me, "can a human have both sides to themselves?".

my answer was, "yes."

we often complained that people do not understand us, so we just sit down there and we just didnt want to be understood. we just want to be accepted for who we are. but how often do people accept the way we are? and how often do we have to lie to be accepted?

as they say, majority wins. once accepted by the majority, you'll have things going your way smoothly. in this society, no matter where you are, it's just a matter of being accepted. some people had it easy while some do not. like i've always said, we are all special in our own ways, each human is unique by their own weaknesses and strengths.

cat, it's not that you're not understood by them. to understand one person thoroughly is tiring. you need to have a certain level of trust or bond between each other to let someone into your life. and it all boils down to time.

ah cat, to my understanding from your blog, you have been misunderstood. girls, being girls, we like to jump to conclusions. i guess, your behaviour might have led them to misunderstand you. perhaps you're a little too friendly to guys? so.. when their attention cannot be caught by the guys you've had by ur side, jealousy occurs lar! so all gang up to hurt you with their snide remarks.

hmmmmmmmm.... cat, let time reveal the truth. and hereby hoping that you'll be able to find some real true girl pals over there. =) plus, i also believe that they'll get tired of gossiping all the time. being new there, everyone puts on a mask.

jia you okies?

and remember, we love u for who you are!!~~

strong strong mouse and wei and i will be your supporting pillar!!~~ smile more okies? =D

Lost of devastation!!!

10/10/2006

I start to doubt myself what kind of person am I? Did I really change into another person completely? I’m feeling so lost and confused over the shit that I’ve got into. This is making my life so miserable? Why is it always so hard for me and others to understand me?

Am I such a bitchy and cheap girl that always goes round looking and seek for the attention of all guys? Is this the way I’m behaving now? Am I such a person? Is there anyone who can help me out of this trouble and pull me out of the bottom pit? Why am I always being regarded as someone who is an attention-seeker from man and loves the company of man? This is such a stupid shit! Why am I being perceived by others in this manner? By why do I get along with other cabin crews on board better? Is it because I’m really someone who is a bitch and loves to flirt around?

The gals that I used to be close with previously came over to talk to me today. She told me that I’m a attention-seeker and I loves to flirt around with guys. This is the point And the topic that almost everyone is talking about me…. Is there really a problem with me? I don’t know what I can do now… I’m feeling so lost and frustrated being in this whole shit and without my dear family and gal friends. I need so much support and concern from them now. What am I supposed to do? Am I a bitch? I don’t know… I’m starting to doubt my character, dignity and everything about myself!

This is such a cultural shock for me... i don't know if i'm strong enough to withstand all these... is my dad praying and blessing for? Or has he given up hope on me? Did i really change?...

one morning

i woke up real early today , 7.35am and i rushed off to bring dear the fried rice + watermelon+ apple for his breakfast . Funnily , i went to his house and he is still preparing for work whilst i make myself busy putting the fried rice into microwave , getting water ,and taking his shoes out for him . is this like a typical day ? morning mist was nice . I guess I don;t want to be so depressed , sorry gals for that day incident . I don;t know why such a thought would come up but now i realised how stupid . "( don;t want to talk about it anymore)

"I wish him and I could be together forever . "
but enternity doesn;t belong to anyone but ourselves .

me n lp just went to vivo city on sunda and it was surprising pretty for the slade design and asethetic feel .

all i could think is currently one more ER project due and 3 more exam .

16th oct ---------------------------ER project report
27th oct ----------------------------MAB exam (70%)
31st oct ----------------------------BB (50%)
7th nov ----------------------------otd (40%)

finally i intended to start my revision this week for BB , gambattee

regard ,
reis